Sisyphus' Rock

The other day, I was scrolling through my timeline on Facebook, and there was this post that caught my eye, which I didn't know how to feel about it. A "friend" had shared an article about moms not being able to work because childcare was so expensive, and after paying for it, hardly anything from their paycheck was left. This "friend" added a post saying something along the lines of, "Well, if it's so expensive, just stay home and watch your own children. I didn't have children so other people could raise them."   That kind of tore a hole in my heart even though I am a stay at home mom. No one else is raising them but myself, so I'm not sure why I was so offended. But I was hurt, mainly because my plan has never been to stay home. Matter of fact, I've always kind of been counting down to when I could go back to work. When we moved up to Alaska, childcare was ridiculously expensive for a 4 year old, and there weren't any full day/

Now that my husband is back, and not doing a regular Army schedule, he has decided to join me doing T-25. The only time that works for us is at 5:30a, while all 3 of our kids are asleep. I am VERY excited he has joined me, as this pushes me to not give up, BUT I feel I am not able to give it my all because of it! Usually, I workout just before noon or a little after, depending on when my toddler finally falls asleep. I've already had a light breakfast and coffee by this point so I am energized and ready to give it my all. If my daughter's nap is long enough, I'll add some treadmill time or some "amateur weightlifting" to my routine. Found this cute little bench set with bars and weights included for $65 on Next Door! These past 2 days (AH, it feels like forever!!) have been such a drag, my throat is super dry even after drinking water, my knees feel tight to where I am not able to jump, and I can't control my breathing as good. I am getting sick, so may

Okay, so maybe I'm not everyone's definition to skinny fat. Some people would say that is a title for those that are a size one or zero but have a flabby tummy. Considering that the average clothing size for women in the U.S. is between a 12-14, and I'm at a size 6-8, I'm going to consider myself in the skinnier side of things.      Background :  I've always been about a size 3-4 my Adult life, that is after having 2 children (I had children very young!) Back in 2013, while my husband was deployed, I decided to fill up my already busy life of school, 2 kids in sports/school and volunteering with my husband's FRG unit with getting in shape and tightening up my very loose tummy. Well, in the 9 months he was gone, I completed 2 rounds of Insanity, 2 rounds of T25, and a round of Rock Hard Abs, I also hit the gym 2-4 times a week. I wasn't quite tracking what I was eating, I was just more conscientious of it. I averaged half a pound to 3/4 of a pound lost a

I've had a hole in my stomach, a feeling, a yearning, telling me to write down my feelings, write down my thoughts, so that's what I've decided to do. I am sharing my life, raw, uncut and unfiltered. To who? Who knows. But it isn't contained within me and that is the best part! I have so many interests and wants and needs, so there isn't a certain thing I will hone in on. I have entered a weight loss journey as of 2 days ago. Not a huge loss is expected, but this skinny fat has got TO GO! I am a mother of 3, with the newest addition having come only 13 months ago. The oldest though, is 11 now. So there is all the crazy that comes with that. I am married to someone in the military, so I get to go long stretches with the kids being the ONLY people I communicate with. I was an avid sewist (sewer?) before out most recent move. We move every few years, so I live a kind of lonely life, to where I spend the first few years in a shell with social anxiety at an all time hi